It’s 4 a.m. and I can’t sleep. This Brett Kavanaugh business has got me shook. I’ve spent several of the last days talking to men and women about it, explaining why I believe Ms. Ford. One of the big reasons is the number of times in my life that I have faced sexual agression in some form or another. At a party on Friday night I got to talking with a man about it and I told him that I felt that not one woman in the room we were in had not been sexually harassed in her life. He was shocked and asked me if I had been sexually assaulted. I started listing off examples, watching his face grow more and more worried. I stopped myself after about the fourth example and said to him, “But it’s not all men. There are plenty of men in this world who will never be accused of sexual assault and it’s because they aren’t assailants.” Then I gave him an example of a good friend of mine that was at that same party.
My friend and I went on a 3-week road-trip together a few years back. I wasn’t sure how my friend felt about me and was a bit worried he might expect something romantic. When we arrived at our first destination and got to our Airbnb, we found that there was only one bed in the bedroom. Without saying anything, I put my stuff down and went to use the restroom. When I came back, the bed had been separated into two beds by my friend. I felt such a huge sense of relief that he had made it clear that he respected me and didn’t expect anything from me and in the three weeks we traveled together, he never once made a romantic move toward me. This is a man I will trust for the rest of my life.
As I was lying here tonight I kept thinking about all of the men who have “rescued” me in the past as I have traveled through the world “putting myself at risk” as many people have told me in the years since. “How could you have traveled for such a long time on your own? Weren’t you scared?!” It’s so unfair that we women travelers have to constantly think about our safety and that we are blamed for having put ourselves in that situation, rather than the men who assault us. But, again, there are good men out there who aren’t afraid to do the right thing. I am so grateful for all the men in this world who have pretended to be my boyfriend on a whim so that I can get another man to leave me alone. For the men who have accompanied me on buses, in taxis, or down the street because I’ve told them I’m afraid and will they just walk with me until this man following me goes away. There have been many, many of these instances in many, many parts of the world.
For those of you men who are saying that all men should be afraid because they can be accused at any moment of being a sexual predator: You are wrong. Not all men need to be afraid, but I bet if you’re one of the ones saying this, then you probably should be. Only the sexual predators, the creeps who don’t know when no means no, the guys who send you 25 text messages after you break up with them, the guys who will shout at you down the length of a busy street because you turned them down, the guys who will hold your arm and try to force you to kiss them, the men who think it’s totally OK to grab a young girl’s arm and try to shove it down your pants on the bus, the taxi drivers who will grab a girl’s arm when she goes to pay and pulls her toward him from the back seat to try to kiss them, the men who refuse to believe your married because they’d rather pretend you’re available, the men who grab, touch, and kiss without asking: You should be scared. But not all men need to be scared. If you are, maybe look at the way you approach women. Talk to other men and find out how not to be a creep and maybe, just maybe, you won’t get accused of sexual assault one day.